A New Year

014025We welcomed in the new year with a hike through the woods with some friends on a glorious northern California day. The sun was high and bright, the ground was cool, drying out from all the rain and the air smelled of eucalyptus and bay leaves as the boys scurried along the path in front of us. It was a comforting and grounding way to ring in another year. 020Turning over a rock on the path, the boys found a tiny little salamander and many hands were eagerly waiting to hold it.  The older boys understood how to be gentle with it and let it slither about in their hands, but Calvin just wanted to pinch it by its tail or curl it up inside his fist. 123At breakfast that morning, I tried explaining to Levi what it meant to start the new year over again and about all of the things that we have to look forward to in the coming months.  One of the things being his 5th birthday this year and then kindergarten in the fall. When the words came out of my mouth, I wanted to shove them right back in! 5??? Kindergarten??? Where did the time go? It was just yesterday that I was walking these same hills with him in my belly and then while he was a baby strapped to my chest.  This letting go and growing up thing is a hard one to swallow some days. 070And then there’s this guy…this talkative, inquisitive, funny, sweet and salty little firecracker of mine.  Already climbing trees and hiking on his own, so desperately trying to keep up with his older brother. At least he will turn around and ask to be held and snuggled for a while before he’s on his way again!069109As they grow and change so do I.  The lessons they teach me daily are great and some days I am so humbled and blown away by their sageness and wisdom. Their eyes are so open and bright, letting in the light of the world around them.  I know I can’t filter out all of the “bad” things in this world from their experiences, but rather strive to be an example of what is good, what is kind, what is gracious.

Westwood Hills Christmas Eve 2011

Westwood Hills Christmas Eve 2011

Westwood Hills New Year's Day 2013

Westwood Hills New Year’s Day 2013

I have a list a mile long of all the things I want to “accomplish” for myself in this coming year, but more than anything I want to keep on working on myself for them, so that I can lead by example. I will never be a perfect parent and I will never get it completely “right”, but I do want to be a mama they will be proud of one day and they will know in their hearts that I did my best for them. That’s my wish for the new year.

022060Because Lord knows there is no guarantee in this life, that our time is precious and fleeting. Make it the best you can. Happy New Year to you all.

  One thought on “A New Year

  1. January 3, 2013 at 4:54 am

    Beautiful post Dara. Happy new year!

    • daraweyna
      January 3, 2013 at 8:17 am

      Thanks, E…happy new year to you and Jack too. And let’s hope we’ll see more of each other this year!

  2. Fran
    January 3, 2013 at 6:57 am

    Oh what a day it was. I went to the ocean. I love those Salamanders. So glad you turn over rocks too!.What a change in the boys over a small time in their llives and yours.
    Have the best this year of 2013. And yes, there are no guarantees in this life. Hang on to the moments or at least keep taking these great snaps of history in the making.
    Good to see you both.
    Fran

    • daraweyna
      January 3, 2013 at 8:17 am

      Thanks, Franny…love you. SO much fun seeing you the other night and looking forward to the next time. XO

  3. Heidi Voskuil
    January 3, 2013 at 10:03 am

    Love it Dara! You are so beautiful.

  4. January 4, 2013 at 2:05 am

    Amen. But, you know, they’re already proud of you, right?

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